Supernatural fangirl and addict.

I love my show and the boys. I'm a Sam!gal who adores Dean.

I love making stuff - vids, pic-spams, gifs and I love chatting about my show.

This is a 90% Supernatural blog. There will mostly Sam and SamnDean and J2 posts on this tumblr, Also, occasional rants. Other posts will appear as the fancy takes me (or be whatever show I am currently adoring).

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Kevin Tran. It’s a lonely road to absolution.

This is for CaffieneKitty and fandomaid. :) Special thanks to counteragent. <3


Little Sammy waddling around in Dean’s too big sweatshirts because he likes to feel grown up (✿◠‿◠)

Little Sammy running to Dean’s room in the middle of the night after having a bad dream (◕‿◕✿)

Little Sammy holding tight to Dean’s hand on the first day of kindergarten and crying when Dean has to leave him to go to class (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧


'Sam, you are expected to suffer endlessly in the pursuit of an impossible goal—hell, you're expected to suffer endlessly in pursuit of an impossible goal when you don't even have the information to know what the real goal is—and because you didn't suffer endlessly and fruitlessly, I can't love…

in a nutshell, I’d say spot on. I’ve come to realise that (some) fans respond to Sam the way Sam is responded to in the show by other hunters. He’s mistrusted. Even when he’s done everything (and more) to redeem himself he’s still guilty of his original sin (many would say that was going to college instead of staying in the family business) Because Dean is essentially the golden boy in the ‘verse (which is interesting because Kripke said early on that Sam would be the character the viewers connect to and sympathise with - not counting on Jensen’s popularity and wonderful way he plays Dean) no matter what Sam does it pales when measured up to the hurt he’s caused Dean. Last season was a prime example of that. Dean did something highly questionable but it’s Sam who got the hate because he hurt Dean’s feelings. Because Dean’s act was considered an act of love, it can’t be questioned. Sam can’t question it either because - well, how dare he. He’s so ungrateful, doesn’t he realise the sacrifices Dean makes for him?! They’ve set up an interesting dynamic between them, but I fear Sam will only ever “win” when he’s either made to apologise, suffer more or die. And in many ways, that right there, is at the very heart of Sam’s character. He knows he’ll never win. (Sorry for the mini essay…)


                                             ”I hate demons” (x)

                                                 I. Wonder. Why…..